memo2662's Revelife

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Tue, 24 Mar 2009 00:39:19 GMT

a Lil vent!
So I just seen something that pissed me off, but in a good way. I HATE people who talk so much, but talk so much about nothing, but being an entreprenuer you get use to alot of hot air . It made me upset b/c She's been saying a long time ago (were talking years) that she wanted me to take her graduation pictures. I had not talked to her over VERY STUpid reasons , best for us both, but on MY end there is no beef (I am her child's godmother, Well, I dunno anymore). Seen her last week, everythings fine. So I log onto facebook, and seen her new graduation pictures that are completely airbrushed to the core where it doesn't even look like her, and I know from the pit of my SOUL she did that for an obvious backlash at me b/c maybe she has some underlying thing that against me, but who knows.
So at first I just laughed it off b/c the ish looks very fake and her head looks totally alienation-ish, but then I got angry b/c she has been telling me for so long" Man you are definitely going to do my graduation pics, no matter what." (I am not one to knock off anyone's work, but it is not professional when it's plastic in my opinion)
I am not even tripping off me not doing her pictures, but the simple fact that I KNOW IN MY SOUL she did that on purpose, b/c of whatever it is she has against me. Why are people spiteful? ARE YOU SERIOUS? You act a fool to the ONLY ONE who WANTS to NOT put you down, and talk about you behind your back? I feel angry, but I channel my anger to my photography. I can't wait for a day when I am a super successful fashion photographer, and all these stupidos who slept on me will come running, and GUESS WHAT!! YA PAYING FULL PRICE!!!
I am going to reward everyone who has been loyal in my process of evolving. I am thankful for all who have stuck by me while I am producing better pictures than yesterday.
I AM SO GRATEFUL FOR THE PEOPLE WHO ARE IN MY LIFE RIGHT NOW!!
IT IS A BLESSING TO BE AROUND SUCH GOOD PEOPLE who are in the business of maturing, and getting to where God wants them to be, and NOT being a follower.
BUT I REBUKE YOU, SATAN! YOU CANNOT STEAL MY JOY!!!!:D HA!
I NEVER KNEW, OR COULD UNDERSTAND WHY YOU BROKE THE 15 YEAR CONNECTIONS WITH SOME PEOPLE, BUT TODAY I CAN ACTUALLY SEE CLEAR AS EVER!!
I AM FOREVER GRATEFUL FOR THE NEW RELATIONSHIPS GOD IS PLACING AROUND ME!
THANK YOU LORD FOR PROTECTING ME! NOW I AM CONFIDENT THAT I AM GOING TO HAVE A GREAT FUTURE!
AMEN!

Spiritual funk

Sat, 07 Mar 2009 18:42:45 GMT

How do you get out of a spiritual funk? after reading your word, and praying unceasingly?
What do you do when you feel spiritually drained?

Friday, February 20, 2009

Fri, 20 Feb 2009 21:47:59 GMT

One thing God has spoken,
two things have I heard:
that you, O God, are strong,

and that you, O Lord, are loving.
Surely you will reward each person

according to what he has done.

-Psalm 62v11-12

I wonder...

Tue, 17 Feb 2009 04:51:03 GMT

At times, I wonder why God blesses others earlier and some later. I have noticed that alot of things I have been praying for unceasingly for months I have seen other people getting those things instead of me. God told me that I am in the right place where he wants me in my life (never a place you REALLy want to be is the place where God wants you to be-still I am content). I am not a hater-these people definitely deserve it, and I praise God for his mighty hand in their situation. But I feel a lil sad, b/c It has been about 8 months since I have been praying for certain blessing, only to see others getting showered with what I have been praying for, so it does hurt a lil, and makes you think "When is my time coming?" I am as desperate in this situation as the other person, actaully have been desperate longer than them. It seems like God has me there to encourage people to get to a place where they can recieve the blessing. I am always right there from before the blessings to the result of them, and although I praise him, I wonder at times"When will my turn come?"
But I rebuke Satan! I will not become discouraged. The righteous has never been forsaken, and I know God has not left me. In due season God will water on this LONG, dry season I have been in.
In time....

GivE a lIL bIT <3

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 18:25:07 GMT

After reading BigShow's blog, I remembered that Valentines day is this week. Saturday. I pray no one is all bittery on this day. This can be bad for some on how YOU make it.
Most V days as single me, and my girls would get dressed up, and go out to a very extravagant restaurant. We'd eat, drink, and delight in ourselves! Its always fun, and the pictures come out great b/c we look so Hott! lol. This year my BF's birthday is that day as well, so we had alot of things planned to do (Great restaurant, Comedy Club, lounge with V.I.P. reservations), but she called me, and said that she felt a need to do something for others this year than to indulge for herself so she has decided to make nice lunches, and go feed the homeless this year. I could'nt believe my ears! That is the most selfless thing I've heard in a while. Not only is it her Bday, but it is Vday, and she has something to do, but she's decided to give back. I decieded to join along with her. I know this thought was God inspired, and I am so excited to be able to help someone who is probably feeling more depressed on this day besides no one to go out with on Vday.

So instead of sulking about not getting any attention or showered from a fella or lady how about encouraging someone this Vday who might always feel the way you might feel this one day. Whether it be homeless, elderly, friend-The point is showing Love, and appreciation this day (in which is God's ultimate joy) :)

This will be an interesting event, but I am READY TO BE INSPIRED!!!
<3 <3 <3 <3
Poem by Se7en: The Realest,Most Awesome:

Photo by SaulGM

:?

Tue, 10 Feb 2009 01:20:37 GMT

OoO.......I feel Queezzy In my Stomach.......After talking to my friend about a dream I had, she mentioned that God showed me this about the person so I could tell them. I did'nt think of it that way...but now since she released that to me.......I feel something in my belly stirring......to do just that.......
erRgh.......I believe God is wanting me to ask somebody something that I had a dream about concerning them.......But Why do I feel So.....Nervous? ...Fearful? ...Scared?
Maybe because God had me to tell this person something before, and it was not received well, but it was what God told me to say.........
OoOoo......I don't ......know.......what.......to.....do......
Should I say?.....Or should I keep shut??

Blab-The City

Sun, 08 Feb 2009 05:28:18 GMT

I <3 The City ;)
These are some promo shots I found on MTV. I love Random photography shots. They tend to come out better than the choreographed ones.
Jay is my secret crush :) Randomness.
Sexy:

All I gotta say is...dang...Great smile ;)

Nice shot: Great angle

Aww. Mushy Mushy

Loves this: Very Fun

Very Chic: Great Scene

Saturday, February 07, 2009

Sat, 07 Feb 2009 04:54:21 GMT

Everything has changed about me in all aspects. I have to now redefine my definition of fun, but first find out what it is.
Me, and a BF of mind stumbled into a lounge AKA HOOD CLUB (looked like a mellow lounge outside, but inside looked like it was time to THROW MY HOOD UP).
I was highly disappointed b/c it felt like I was 18 again, And I wanted something more grown-ish. The atmosphere was wack, and I was uncomfortable. Thank God we got in free, and we stayed for only a little while. I felt the impulse to compensate the weirdness with about 10 drinks, but I didn't. It wasn't worth it. Well, it has been about 2 years since I been anywhere like that.
After leaving I wondered what 's my definition of fun these days. I am searching for new things to do, and that place was too familiar for comfort. I will have to search now what it is that will make me want to go out, and I have an actual good time. Rediscovering yourself is a strenous journey...
I don't know. well see..
Well least we looked hott ;)

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BFF <3

Why? weirdness....

Tue, 03 Feb 2009 05:42:59 GMT

WooHoo! So, I just came from an awesome concert tonight by the Killers! I not only seen them perform, but scored backstage passes to meet them as well, which was sweet! They were cool, especially Brandon (Lead), and Mark (Guitar). We hugged. It was all good. The concert was Great! But something EXTREMELY disturbed me tonight on a level that I never imagined.
As I am stoked to be at the concert after miraculously winning tickets, and passes the night before, me , and my friend Charie were very giddy, and eager to wait in line to enter the venue like everyone else, but I started noticing we were getting a lot of stares. As we entered the venue, we had to wait in a little go between from the bar to the venue for the radio crew so we, and the other backstage winners to meet up and see the crew. So as me, and my friend Charie were waiting it became very apparent that people kept looking at us in a weird way-well my friend Charie noticed it first. She laughed it off saying "Well, I don't see color, but I guess everyone else does." Then jokingly she says: "Maybe we don't belong."
After she said that I started to look around us, and yes, apparently we were the only black people at the concert so maybe that's why it caused everyone to take second looks, and keep a non blinking gaze. But what is the difference? Why the blank stares like 'Uhhh...what are they doing here"
First of all, I have been a Killers fan since Hot Fuss (their first album in 2004) came on the market, and have been a fan ever since I know all of their lyrics, and they are FREQUENTLY on my ipod, and in my cd deck. I love their 80's sound, and appreciate their hidden meanings, and messages in their songs-Basically I have been a long time fan, so when I heard they were coming I definitely wanted to see them, but it disturbed me how we got so many looks. Then we seen a guy, and a girl waiting a little further than where we were, and I was wondering if they were apart of the Backstage pass group we were waiting for, because they kept on looking our way. I noticed they had the same wrist bands we had on so I walked over there (to break the staring), and asked if they were for backstage as well, and they were like 'Yea, your for the concert too?" FIRST OF ALL that was the only event AT the venue so I did not understand that question, but I answered yea, and went on a friendly chat anyways with them b/c I love to mingle.
When they rallied up the group together, and we got in the venue, the staring got worst, but I felt like it was more b/c we were waiting to get in the back, and everyone could see, but I still felt uncomfortable. No one really mingled with us, like I seen others, but me, and my friend mingled together, and with the Radio crew, so it was all good. After we seen The Killers which they were real cool, and the concert progressed, I noticed stares of sort of astonishment from people by me because I knew all the lyrics to the songs where half of the people there didn't really know them at all. I wasn't loud b/c I have an itchy throat so I couldn't really scream like I wanted, but people close to me heard me, and I noticed one girl was staring at me almost the whole night when every song came on, and the reason why I knew she was staring was because every time I looked that way she smiled, and looked away, but that was every time I looked at her.
But in the midst of all that I enjoyed myself, but it left a bitter taste in my mouth. No, I was not the girl who won free tickets, and didn't know who was performing, but just came for the hell of it. One of the backstage pass winners came up to me, and my friend and asked us' "So are you guys Big Killer fans? I was like Yea, I have been a fan since Hot fuss, and she seemed shocked, and was like "Okay. Thats cool, because you know some people just came, but don't even know them, you know." I had no comment. The atmosphere was weird.
Thats like Me looking at every race weird who's ever came to concerts like Kanye, or any concert I've been to. Music is Music,and it doesn't have a color, or maybe it hasn't to me.
I am a very diverse girl, and I do not see color; been like that since I was a child. My parents did not raise me that way either, and it has never been an issue in the most majority of my life. I get along with everyone a great deal, of all cultures. I have always been one to embrace all differences in life.
But tonight it was very IN YOUR FACE, and apparent that it was "weird" that we were there. I pray for equality to reign in the hearts of everyone, for we will never move forward this way.
hmmm.....................

WOOHOO!!

Mon, 02 Feb 2009 01:45:55 GMT

O MY GOSHHHHHH!!

I WON FREE TICKETS TO SEE THE KILLERS!!!!! WOOHOOO!!!
THANK U LORD!!!